IMHO.
Humble?
If I have to state that I am humble...
You can almost guarantee that I am not.
Today I marvel at my arrogance.
I shudder to think at how many hours I have spent voicing opinions...
challenging choices...
weighing...
measuring...
sifting...
directing...
My God.
Oh my GOD!
How can you stand me?
What is a life?
70-ish years if we're lucky...
Who am I to say...this is or is not the way?
To declare what a person needs to do in a moment of time according to "me"
We are all so unique.
Our approaches to life sooooo different.
Sometimes I forget to see the beauty of the life being lived out in front of me.
The processes by which an individual is being transformed...
They are not my ways.
"If it was me..."
"If I were you.."
But the scriptures say...
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the LORD."
Isaiah 55:8
When did I start esteeming my own opinion more than trusting the One who knows the whole story?
When did I start talking more and offering my viewpoint...rather than listening more and praying even more?
For every soul that I come in contact with..there is a story unfinished..a life in process.
A life overshadowed by an omniscient, omnipresent, omnipotent creator.
He sees things radically different than I.
Things like:
Loss.
Pain.
Suffering.
Wealth.
Success.
Security.
If anyone who reads this blog today...has endured conversations with me the fixer..the talker..the opinionated self imposed life coach...I humbly apologize!
I used to say to people that it seemed as if it was much easier to trust others to ourselves rather than to God.
As if God needed an assistant.
I look back now and I see so much vanity....
Life is a unique path for everyone who breathes.
There are those who live in mansions.
Others in hovels.
Some have all the gadgets.
Others live off the grid.
Some watch TV.
Others abhor it.
Some love fashion.
Others...are poster children for the show "What Not to Wear"
Some worship in church...
Others at the shore or atop a mountain.
Some eat vegetarian..
Others hunt and fish.
Some have many children..
Others none...
Some get over things quickly and move on..
Others take years.
Some divorce.
Others endure.
The list is ENDLESS...to infinity and beyond...
Where is the constant?
The common thread?
The connection with another living, breathing, soul?
It is the source of our lives.
The meaning...the holding-all-things-together part...
"He is before all things, and in him all things hold together."
Colossians 1:17
At the ripe old age of 43, I stand corrected today.
Rebuked.
Chastened.
By a loving, perfect, patient God.
Who is all about process.
His way.
"...because the Lord disciplines those he loves, and he punishes everyone he accepts as a son."
Hebrews 12:6
For all you friends..family...
I offer an apology.
For the past mistakes of a girl in process.
His ways are far better than mine.
Kevin Prosch penned the words in his song: His Banner Over Me:
"He does all things well...just look at our lives.."
I am just so thankful..for today..the gift of today..mercies new...
...and the knowledge that for all of us still breathing...
He's not done yet.
Blessings on your unique journey...you're in good hands...
No need to apologize - YOU are unique and your story is unfolding - YOU are in process too.
ReplyDeleteI am so grateful that God knows what we need even before we do. YOU are a blessing, dear friend.
Now, to get you that block quote designed - I am on it! lol
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