Friday, August 17, 2012
Life is not going quite according to plan.
The specs on my summer somehow got mislaid along the way and I find myself nearing the end of August wondering what happened.
Night after night I lie in the dark, tears leaking from the corners of my eyes, whispering the name of Jesus over and over.
It is a plea?
Is it a hope?
Is it a crutch?
There are moments when I feel that I don't have the right to use His precious name.
Those moments are the ones when I cling anyways.
I cling tighter.
I grip with the strength of one going under for the third time.
It is not common sense... but an outlandish realization that: I have no where else to go !
Whom have I but you Lord ?
The words escape my lips with every breath I breathe.
I have gone so far beyond reasonable faith.
I am past reason.
I will NOT let go.
I am declaring like the three who stood before the furnace:
My God will save me...and even if He does not: I will not bow.
He saves because of His nature.
He rescues, because of who He is.
His mercy.... is full of MERCY.
Grace.... unmerited... undeserved....unrelenting: is found in HIM ALONE.
Today ... stripped... standing in the light of day: I am the Least.
Not measured by possessions, education or station in life... but by what I have to offer in exchange for His perfection:
I am last.
Unless He raises me up: I am NOWHERE.
He makes me SOMEONE.
I am who He says I am.
He makes me His.
As I sit here alone the world fades, even as the sun shines in a blazing blue sky and I hear cars passing, the sound of children's voices and birdsong are carried by the breeze through my window:
Just Breathe, I whisper to myself.
Just Breathe, the Spirit whispers deep within.
The breath of God: my creator, my designer... sustains me.
I am because He decided I was to be.
I trust because there is NOTHING else, NO ONE else ....
I know I need Him.
I NEED HIM.
All I need to do is: Just Breathe.
How's your breathing today?
Posted by Juanita Rose at 10:11 AM