Saturday, June 23, 2012

One Life

I hear the statement quite frequently : "You've got one life, spend it wisely."

Life Life Large.

ummmmm...... why ?

Lately, I find myself captivated by this concept, the concept of my One Life.

The feelings that statement engenders are mixed. Middle age does that to you. A panic sets in at the measuring of time passed vs time yet to be.

Suddenly I am there. Questioning. Reasoning. Evaluating. Concluding. And the insecurities swamp the boat.

With whom do I compare my One life to see if it is adequate?
With whom do I measure to see if I am where I should be?
With whom to I adapt and adjust and accomodate so that the value of my days, activities and choices result in a life well spent?

Between what happens to me and what I cause to happen...I live. Those are the bookends of my life.

 I, for the most part, cannot control what happens to me: what others choose to do and say, that's beyond my control.

And then there is me, the girl who can while the day away with a book... while someone is off in Nepal scaling Everest, curing cancer or inventing cars that fly.

A bike ride through Fish Creek Park sends me soaring and tears clog my throat at the beauty of sunlight and shadows through the leaves, the sound of the creek in full flood fills my ears and drowns out any sign that there is a city all around: and my heart leaps.
 Fire in the fire pit, leaping and crackling at the end of a day NOT spent cleaning my house.... and the peace of sitting around the pit with sons: Its a GOOD day.

Conversations with friends, family and sometimes even strangers brings such joy.

People are precious. Even when broken and crushed beneath the weight of pain, suffering and chaos. PEOPLE ARE PRECIOUS.

 Maybe I am not ambitious enough. Maybe I should want more, do more, be more.

 I live in a society that has perfected the art of MORE....of wanting MORE... of doing MORE... and it is NEVER satisfied.
The struggle for me is to understand and believe that today.... my life ....has as much meaning and value as I sit and write from my laptop in bed: as any other day.
I am precious and priceless and my life has value because it was given to me by the Creator.
My worst day... is still FULL of His presence.
My ONE LIFE: Is who I am: I am His.

 Today, there are those I know and love just barely making it through. There are those I care about who are in a place of surviving...and to them thriving is a dream.
 I say to you today my friends: I am blessed to share air with you, privileged to have my ONE LIFE overlapping with yours.

There are others I know who simply live. Live simply.

There is a day in the life...but there is also a LIFE in the day.

i.cherish it. 


today is my life.

today is your life.

you don't have to fill it: just live it.

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