Thursday, October 6, 2011

Now that I know....

I thought she was going to say they didn't find anything wrong.
I thought the Evoked Potentials Test would come up clean and clear.
I was sure.

I was wrong.

Damaged nerves. Deterioration.
The ugly diagnosis emerges from the fog where it has been lurking and fills my horizon.
She speaks the words: Softly now : M.S
{Those two letters lend themselves to whispering very well}

I have the same body I did yesterday, but I have significantly more information than I possessed a short 24 hours ago.I have discovered, much to my surprise, that information weighs a lot.
I feel like I have been binge eating.
I don't dare step on the scale.

Did you know that a mind can race and crawl at the same time ?
It is one of my latest discoveries.

I am sure there are more to come.


  1. Girl, your strength amazes me! I watch you handle all of life's dips and turns with such grace and with so much are a treasure!!

  2. My prayers are with you...what an example of God's love you are....

  3. @shawntele: You are a gift to a writer starved for affirmation. HUGS!!!

    @anonymous Thanks for the prayers and encouragement!

  4. Your faith and strength encourage and inspire me.

    So thankful that you have a firm Foundation to lean on, who always has your best interests at heart.

    Bless you, sweet friend. Know that you are loved and lifted up in His precious name.


  5. @wender This is the fellowship of the believers: So blessed to have you in my life! xox